Waiting.

Yesterday afternoon the hospital turned off Mom Taylor's ventilator.  I have texted her future Daughter-in-Law (which has been amazing) for another update.  I know that Dad Taylor can't handle sharing any of this news.  It's hard enough as it is for him to try to cope with the fact his best friend and soul mate is passing.  I'm trying to find peace in knowing that Heaven will be gaining the most amazing angel yet.  In remembering her and sweet memories.  The last update was that if she handles it well and keeps breathing, they plan to remove the tube.  They will then sedate her when she is having too much trouble on her own and she will not wake back up.  :'(  If she can't handle being off the ventilator, they will sedate her and keep her comfortable until she passes.  I don't even know how to cope with that.  Basically just waiting on the final saying of it all.  I'm pulling for a miracle so hard on the inside, but pray that what's best for her happens, we can't be selfish.  I'm at a numb point, blank, sad.  There aren't any words to really describe the feeling I have 24/7.  I'm trying to focus thoughts and prayers on the family right now, too.  As much as she is to me, she is that much plus more to them.  I just pray that they are as strong as their mother is and have faith and comfort while they sit with her to see her through these final times.  :(  My heart aches so badly for them right now.